Well, how about that.

I just got reorged.

                          

Not a big deal, I'm sure - but it scares me.

No, it doesn't scare me. Yes, it does. No, wait - I'm scared, and this exposes it. There - that's better. Perhaps not completely accurate, but at least it sounds humble :)

At any rate - I've had the same job working for the same guy in the same chair in the same cube for three years. Now it LOOKS like I'm gonna have that same job description, but working for a different guy, and he works in a different city with a different way of doing things, and I don't know how that's going to require me to change, and I just don't care for it.

My colon doesn't care for it - it's alerting me, right now; sort of a tactile alarm. If a colon could sound like the red alert claxons on the Starship Enterprise, then that is how mine would be sounding right now. Or like those speakers on a submarine saying "Dive! Dive! Dive!"

I suppose that if I were actually on a team, it would be different; I would have co-workers, and we would all huddle together and weather the storm. But that's not the case - I've been a single square on the org chart for a long time now, reporting to one guy who had a lot of teams working for him; now I'll be a single square reporting to somebody else who has another team that reports to him. I keep winding up as the odd-man-out - the Rudolph, who won't be allowed to join in anymore reindeer games.

This is going to have a major impact on my productivity, as I'm not going to be able to get much work done with my head, hands and feet all pulled back into my shell like this; but after some period, I'll probably poke my pieces back out into the open and take a look around to see if everything is all right.

I know people who say that they don't like change; well, I'm not one of them. I've lived on two continents, I've been married three times, I've had several careers, and I change hobbies just as soon as I find out that I'm no good at the current one.

I like change just fine; what I don't care for is change that I didn't instigate. That can terrify me.

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